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Born
I was born in Rochester, NY. Never asked to be born, just a thing that happened. I guess asking to be born doesn't really make sense. I don't actually have any memories during this time except for one. But I don't know, surely it was a weird dream. My mom said I was a kicker. -
2002
I remember having friends like Tommy and Ben. But I still wanted more or something. I wined to my dad how I was board and wanted a friend. He said that I already have some friends. But I still wined about it. I remember me and my dad used to play this game where he'd though some red ball and we go and race to it. I remember the mountain of snow that was created when the snow plow came to our driveway. I remember having a cat named Zena. -
2002
I remember growing up in New York in my first house. It was a nice house I would say. My favorite thing to do was to watch barney on the TV. I was the child who would climb out of the crib with my blanket late at night. My grandparents were sometimes there, and they were nice. I remember my grandfather trying to teach me how to read. We called them in polish, Babcie and Dziadie. -
2003
I remember being in the hospital. It was a weird felling like I been there before. I don't know, maybe because I had some allergic reaction to penicillin one time and I had to go to the hospital. Most of my allergies I grew out of like my peanut allergy and I was even allergic to cats back but I am alright now. Except for stupid pollen. -
2003
All of a sudden they told me I had a little brother, my parents named him Mark. I didn't know what to think of him at first. I latter realized, I think I am responsible for my brother's birth. I remember he didn't talk, my mom had a speaking coach for him. He only spoke pretty much to me. I remember while on a shopping trip he told me that he want the blue pacifier. And my mom was like if you can tell me what pacifier you want, you are too old for one. -
2004
I remember still having those birthday parties in my backyard with all the people in school. We had a little playground and a swing I liked to play on and a sand box. At school, I was always goofing around with my best friend named Larry. He was this fat black kid who would show me things I found funny. Are school had this street sign with green for good and so on. We were constantly on yellow. -
2005
After kindergarten, my family moved to Raleigh, NC and we lived in the apartments. I believe it was because my dad found a new job at Sony-Ericson. But for the first few months it was just me and him at the apartments. I remember he bought me a bike and it was the coolest thing ever to me to learn how to ride it. -
2005
After some months, my mom and Mark came to live with us in the apartment after selling the house. I met Patrick who was a friend of mine from Hungary and as well as Alex from school. We usually all go to a place called Fat Daddies which was a restaurant similar to Fuddruckers. I had a lot of fun messing around with them over there. They usually had a clown over who made face paintings and balloons. -
2005
Around the apartments, I joined a "biker gang" which was just a bunch of kids older than me like bigger kids and pre-teens who rode their bikes around the apartments. I remember we bought fireworks and we lit them up on the week ends. Life was good then. -
2006
I didn't completely get my act together during then and I was on yellow constantly. I noticed that I was becoming rather emotional and was the biggest cry- baby. Maybe more so latter than then. The teacher didn't know what to think of me and she thought I was autistic. I went out of class to go learn at special education. I meet a friend named Ingrid who I latter found out had a crush on me in 1st grade but I wasn't even mature enough to even know what that was. I guess she thought I was funny. -
2007
2nd grade was better. I was put in the lowest reading level and subsequently in the lowest math level. I learned to play basketball from my friend Carson. I also picked up soccer during then. One day I accidently picked up the expert level group's math problems rather than my own. After finishing it, I realized and I felt really bad. So I gave it back to the teacher all teary-eyed and she said she'll grade it first. All got them all right. That's when I found out I was actually smart. -
2008
Our school district changed in 3rd grade so I everyone was new again. I was rather shy and noticed it was getting a bit harder finding friends. Our teacher was Mrs. Copper and she was very great. I found couple friends like Ethan and Mason. Mom was pushing me to play a sport so I chose soccer. -
2009
Around this time is when the neighborhood kids wanted to play with each other. I had a lot of fun with most of them, but there was a few that I had problems with. They picked on me and made me feel embarrassed constantly. Like making fun of me not knowing things like how football and baseball works. I found out that the best way to make them not make fun of what I say, is to say nothing at all. Probably the worst advise I have ever given myself. -
2010
Back in 4th grade, I found my best Nathan. We continued our friendship in 5th grade. I was kind of sad that that I my friend Claudia left the school. We used to joke around all the time. But now in the 5th grade, my friends were dwindling. After I begain to try after noticing I was low on friends. -
2011
This is when I moved to middle school. I lived in a weird area between school districts so I switched districts again. Nathan still went to my school which helped. I was really into soccer during that time. So we signed up to be soccer managers. I meet a new group of people to hang out with. Life was good then. Still noticed however that I was quite. -
2012
My friends and I were really hype about making the soccer the soccer team because only 7th and 8th graders could make the soccer team. So when the time came around I didn't make it. Wasn't even close. Our school was pretty completive so it was hard to begin with. I know why now; I only had experienced recreation soccer. So I my mom signed me up to play from rec. straight to classic soccer. It was very different. -
2013
So I tried again for the school soccer team again in 8th grade. I was actually pretty good. I made first cuts which I was pretty proud of but couldn't make team. I felt really bad about it too since most of my friends made it. I wasn't really in the mood to make new friends. So I busied my self with school work. I felt like I had to try and it wasn't like I had anything better to do. -
2013
During the classic soccer, my coach was amazing so I tried out again for the next season. I was chosen to play on one of the lower classic soccer team which I was fine with, it made sense. I actually was the first person to become captain of the team twice. But our team was quite poor so we lost many games which really made our coach loose patience in us. I remember any mistake I did he'd ridicule me. Always yelling about my abilities, how I didn't talk, I wasn't trying. -
2014
So I entered my freshmen year in high school 5'1'' and less than 100lbs. I felt like I didn't belong. Like I skipped a couple years in my life before I got hear. I knew I couldn't make the soccer team so I tried out for the cross country team. It was alright I guess; I wasn't great at it. I ended up hanging out with a small group of people who I knew from middle school. I got my first phone in 9th grade cause I needed it to be picked up from cross country. -
2015
Sophomore year was such a wash. I made no attempt really to change. I was just hoping for a lucky break. People still called me a freshmen because I looked like one still. But there was this class I really liked called adobe video. That is where a lot of good things happened in the future. -
2016
I got a job in a summer pool. Didn't really like it at first, but latter on I loved it. It was like I was a totally different person. I don't know what it was but I had a lot of fun there and meet some nice people. During Junior year I quit cross country for lifeguarding. Well that's what I told my mom but the real reason was that it was getting weird because I wasn't making any friends doing it. -
2016
Since I liked adobe video so much, I signed up for other adobe classes and that is where I meet some better friends. I did the national technical honors society with some of them. I tried to avoid my old friends I hanged out with cause we weren't really friends they enjoyed sitting on the floor on the cafeteria during lunch. Sometimes I went to the computers in the library to pretend on working on stuff so I would have to sit with them. -
2017
During the summer, I was a lifeguard again. l loved doing it, I don't know why but I was like a totally different person. Something about the atmosphere that made me didn't care what others were thinking. I met a girl there that I liked and she really enjoyed my humor but she didn't really like me back. It made sense, I didn't care too much. So it was senior year and I took some hard classes like AP calc and AP bio. The beginning felt weird like some illusion of myself. I didn't know who I was. -
2017
I thought I didn't care what other people thought about me. But at school I did. I cared deeply. I cared so much that I was afraid to act freely which is what I believe was holding me back from making friends. I really worked on this and toward the end I meet a lot of new people that I like. -
2018
This is when I moved to UNCC. I think I wanted to be an engineer because I always wanted to know how things work. And since I was waitlisted for state, I chose this as my plan B. I meet my roommate who from high school who was a lot more outgoing and confident than me. Amongst other reasons, one big reason I wanted him to be my roommate is to learn from him. One thing I really wanted to know is how life works. -
2018
Summer came around again and I renewed my lifeguarding certificate. That girl I like worked there with me. Her friend was working there and I asked her how she thought of me. She that she didn't hate me but did a little bit. I realized that maybe I wasn't being the best person. In not caring what others thought in my alter ego, I also didn't care about others. So I made it my goal to be a better person that year in lifeguarding. In the end, she didn't hate me, not even a little bit. -
2018
I could tell my crush had mixed feelings about me. Probably because I was giving her mixed thoughts of me. On one side I seemed like I fun, smart, good-looking guy but on the other side I seemed awkward, inexperienced, childish, and unconfident. I made sure I ended with a positive light. -
2018
One thing I can say for certain, is that no one knows everything. Everyone has a thing called empathy and they will get you if you fail sometimes. You also can't completely not care what other think though, you must learn empathy for others too.