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4.3 Language
Its was about after 8th month between 10th month. My first language was ASL because my parent are deaf so my natural language to learn is ASL at home environment.
My first ASL sign is light "blink" because my house have light blink when I cry or someone at door.
So I will always point out that light is blink. -
5.1a Child Attachment
When I was child and I was very close to my parent because I don't like let go my secure which is my parent or family. It apply to insecure resistant children on Ainsworth's strange situation. I remember how my parent explain that they had hard time to let me go when I keep cling them. -
4.1 My first memory
My first memory was at least 1yrs old because I do save the memory where my childhood first house at Austin, Texas. The key memory was my father's two poodle dogs that was short time with us before died in couple year later. I think I'm more like remember the environment of my first family home with two poodle dogs. That was very short term before I moved away like when I was late 3 to 4 yrs old. -
4.2 intelligence
Based on Gardner intelligence, pg 246. I seem excel at spatial-visual, I always like do hand on and visual. I tend do better at clay or crafts since I was young girl. Based on first to third grade that I remember early intelligence memory kind.
I always like show works through image or explain in space which huge visual key with ASL language. -
6.1 My Family
I had normal family until one event I did experience different kind family. When my mother decided to get master degrees in different city which almost over five hours between my parent. My mother take three children because my father have different work schedule that not suit to watch over young children ages. I was like 10 years and my younger brother was like five yrs old. That continue for almost 2 1/2 year until my parent finally back live together after mom got her master degrees. -
5.3b Gender
When I was young like between 9-11yrs as pre teenage. I truly hate to be girl identity. I used to think being a girl must be feminine so I often told my parent that to buy clothing as tomboy so I can be rough play outside with my many boys cousins.
That time I don't think much about romance but to be equal to boys because I have two brothers and many boy cousins to make sure I can play with them equally.
I guess that was my struggle gender identity to be girl with wrong picture until much later. -
6.3b Impacted by Death
I had experience two family death in my life time.
First one, My grandma in dad's side. It's was sudden death without goodbye. I was too young that I don't want go funeral because its will miss school time. I was like denial and not understand yet until few days later. 2005
Second, my grandma in mom's side. Its hit me so hard because we did have time to goodbye and watch her sickness killed her body. Its was bargaining then depressing. 2012
Both have huge different how I did accept their death -
1.1 Present
My name is Jamie Utzman.
I'm Female.
I'm 22 years old.
I have deaf parent and two hearing brother.
Current, I'm return student in Gallaudet University as second year student.
Non normative life event that I able to discover myself ability and identity after left gallaudet university.
Biological development, I have both parent that noticed the different. I have my father height tallness and my mother's curly hairs. -
2.1 Fertility
In 2023, I will hard time to get pregnant. I will visit to doctor to check what wrong with me or my partner.
Then, I got result because of stressful life environment for my body. from deal with stressful jobs to keep house and car.
I will discuss with partner to see if possibly change life environment.
We decided to change life environment where I able to get pregnant. If not then we will choose to adopt children. -
3.1 My health
I don't have any serious health illness during childhood.
I only had experience physical health that need hospital/clinic;
The bad cut on mouth need sewing and forehead cut from fan with medical glue to close wound, both was happened in very young ages. I got fracture pinky finger from roller skates in 5rd grade.
In middle school, I got really bad ankle infection. In HS, got many bad sprain ankle
Recently, I start to careful with my health because of high cholesterol. -
3.2 Older Adult Health
My father side family have history with heart problem and high cholesterol.
My mom have diabetes from her side family. My little brother highly like have diabetes, currently he need to checkup with his doctors for more information.
So, I really need to understand that I'm not young child that not get serious illness. I don't have my diabetes from mother side as recently check up. So I will need worry about my dad health because I might have his side health history impact me in future. -
5.1b Adult attachment
After read page 325, I found my adult attachment is Avoidant attachment styles that most closer what I think to be like. Since I had hard time to get close after new relationship or any people I hang out. I think its affect from what I had experience in middle and high school that I had hard time to bond easily. -
5.2b Sexually
Currently, I'm able see myself as attraction to men which identity as heterosexual.
When, I was young I hate my female identity but now I'm able to cherish myself as woman. That my gender identity currently. -
5.2 Identity
I think I'm more like identity achievement. I did experience crisis and current chase my goal right here in Gallaudet university.
Four years ago I would I'm identity diffusion that confused what I should do.
However, I did though my crisis and able to find my goal to be early childhood education teacher and commitment to get BA degrees at gallaudet university. -
6.2 Learning Disability
I don't have learning disability but if in future my children have one. I will use my little brother's AHDA.
When I found out that my child have AHDA and I will try treat them with what they really need not force them behave as perfect child without learning disability.
I might take children away from school and do homeschool to match their time schedule not stuck in classroom. Until they are old enough control AHDA like in middle school or high school. -
6.3b My death
On my death about 87 years old, I would want my family to cremation because its will save my family money and time process to let me go.
I don't sure what kind funeral because I don't know much another than common funeral in church. But I don't want everyone force people wait in church like tradition. I would prefer to have a nice place where people can enjoy share memories of me in one room like social farewell. Because I want people see me as good memories by shared stories of people.