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Moved To The Suburbs
For the first year of my life I lived in a particularly rough part of New York with my mother, father, and two brothers. My dad worked as a sanitation worker and mother stayed at home raising us kids. My family had finally saved up enough money to move to the suburbs down the street and to the left of my aunt's house.Though this house is far from perfect, It was my mom's dream. She finally got her white house on the lake. -
Meeting Issy
Being that my cousins lived right down the road I was often over for playdates. My aunt used to babysit this curly headed punk whom I hated and wanted to destroy. She was my age but 7 months younger and due to this maturity gap she would always find ways to get under my skin. We were quite the trouble makers and not once did we ever snitch on each other. After an iconic trip to a boxing rink we've been fighting our way through life together ever since. -
Moving In With My Aunt
Stability was something I was unfamiliar with as a child. My family, like many families, didn't really have much money which, among other reasons, made my parents argue a lot.During this time of my life I was shuffled around various family members' homes.My brothers and I were tossed everywhere from my uncle’s place in Delaware to my Grandma’s apartment in Manhattan.After many weeks of suitcase living I ultimately landed in my aunt's house which was right down the road. I lived there for 2 years -
Broke My First Bone
Being the little sister of two older brothers,I always would try to fit in with their antics.Whether it was swinging tree to tree monkey style in the woods behind my house,or skateboarding with my brothers friends,I had to prove I could hang.This ultimately resulted in my demise being I was 7 years younger and way less capable.Lets just say I broke my right hand in the world's most epic swing off.I won if you were wondering. After 2 months in a cast and re-learning how to write I was back at it. -
My First Show
Growing up my main inspiration was my family friend Sam Roache. As far as i was concerned she was God. She had been doing theatre since she was little and worked her summers at a community theater run in the basement of st laurence o'toole. That summer they were doing a production of Seussical and 8 year old bridget would absolutely die if she wasn't in it. I begged my parents to save the 150$ fee for weeks and with an extra shift my dream came true. -
Andrew came out
My father was raised in Queens, New York in the 70s. He was raised as a Catholic and was taught that being gay was a sin. My oldest brother, Andrew, was 19 years old when he told my parents he was gay and Immediately he was kicked out of my house.I was to have no contact with him and wasn’t even allowed to say his name. My father's drinking had always been bad but it had gotten to the point where he was unrecognizable. Screaming in my house was like a t.v left on as background noise. -
Dad got arrested
As my dad's addiction grew through the years so did my hate for him. One night in the beginning of my sophomore year I came home from a rehearsal to a hellfire. It wasn't unusual for things to turn physical and that night they did. I called my friend at the time and her mother rushed me to the hospital against my will. I just wanted a place to sleep. My dad was arrested and my life was ruined. Whatever parts of my childhood I was holding onto were ripped from my hands. -
I was diagnosed with anxiety and manic depression
My dad was sent to aa and I was sent to therapy.My therapist,Christy, titled the obvious.Ever since I could remember i've been anxious.My mind is filled wall to wall with the type of worry that makes you go mad.Aggressive thoughts pile and conquer inside me with no foreseeable end. Waves of manic and depressive wash over me weekly. I don't like speaking about this much because I have found it makes people pity me. There's nothing I hate more than pity, I would rather be quiet about how I think. -
Putting Maggie Down
Maggie was my very first sidekick.Together we’d run through the woods,swim in the lake down my street, and go on adventures that made my childhood fun.She was the one who taught me to swim.Shes the one that cuddled with me when things got hard at home.On my 16th birthday she had a Seizure that would leave her unable to walk.Two days later we put her down. I held her the whole time just like she held me when I needed it. My sweet girl was a fighter just like me, all the way to the end. -
First Love
Sadie makes me feel like a person. I've never felt clear headed before her. I've finally found the stability that I've been craving ever since I was young. I've got this type of treasure that no one else can have. My family doesn't know that i'm dating a girl and while you’d think that would stress me out, it she makes me feel like I've found something that's all mine.I feel the way I imagine prisoners feel when they’re released for something they didn't do.
