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Dominic's Birth
My cousin asks me to be a "birth coach"
I was as much of a partner I could be at 18.
Always thought it was a cool experience.
Always wondered why she asked me. -
A Lost Desire
I started writing a journal to my future kids. Wanted them to not have to hear about my past in hindsight.
Until just recently, I had forgotten that I ever even wanted to have kids. -
First Prophetic Word-Tony Atkinson
Among a lot of other cool stuff, Tony prayers for me and hears that I will have a career change, but not for a little while.
He says that God is going to shift me and I won't be upset because it will be better than I could have expected. -
A word for the new year
Tony Atikinson emails my family with some words for us.
Part of mine was, "as trust increases, a clear vision of the future will gradually appear." -
Home?
Feeling a pull to possibly move home. At the time I was asking God for a deeper realtionship and also for the God and others to know that I love them -
Discipline
Feeling like I am coming into a place of distance and discipline.
Also praying that God would take away all the pain with my period -
change in thinking
Stop praying for an ex boyfriend but start praying for my husband -
More forgotten stuff
I pray that the desire for my husband and for children actually hurts.
Again, I don't remember ever wanting that so badly. -
Something new
I write that it seems that a new season is brewing... -
Wanting more
Feeling like I am neglecting the Spirit in me. -
Feeling called home again.
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HOME/find out what a Doula is/ think about getting certified.
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MEET JB
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Prayer at Lakeland
Some guy at Lakeland prayers for me . He calls me Ruth. -
Gateway
While wondering about Ruth, God shows me that Ruth waited on God. She was faithful. The only woman who would wait.
Waiting purifies motives. -
Asking to be brought to a place where I can recieve my promises.
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MARRIED
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Praying about direction/Kids are mentioned
This surprised me! -
need healing
Praying that God would heal my digestive system (Chron's)
And praying that He would take away all the pain with my period. -
still.. healing
Praying more that my digestive system would be healed. -
DIGESTIVE SYSTEM HEALED!
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Praying God would show me my destiny
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God tells me to get off birth control
I think He tells me this because He is going to heal me (which He did, but not in the way I expected). I feel like He is saying that there are natural ways to heal the pain.
I had gotten off BC a couple of times before as a step of faith to this healing... but it hadn't come yet. -
Praying even more that God would show me my destiny
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Another tony atkinson prayer
He prays for healing-- tells me I am healed.
He also tells me that the status quo is changing! YES!
and tells me and Mike that our children are on their way. To keep practicing.
To which we decided to not try... but to keep using a method of birth control. ha! -
Praying that God's will would be done with the birth control thing. I trust Him.
I definitely don't remember praying that! -
Praying that the status quo would change!
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PREGNANT
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getting frustrated
"Give me clues to the plans you have for me, because this is getting old." -
Praying for the career change and asking what my call to others is.
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more frustration
Sick of the mediocre life. Pages and pages of prophecy and I'm not walking in any of it.
teach me who I am. -
move out of state? where? when?
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Praying for a breakthrough in destiny
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thankful prayer
thanking God that the pieces of my life were coming together. Thanking God that Judah plays a part in that although I don't understand. -
prophetic word Barbara Lanzdolph
As pregnant as I was (overdue), so I am pregnant with prophetic words. Judah will help me fufill my destiny. -
Jesus Culture: Chicago
Felt like God was comissioning me. Not sure into what?? -
Builder and Hammer
I hear God tell me that I am a BUILDER.
I don't understand until Alyssa comes over and tells me that God calls Judah a HAMMER. -
prophetic word- Barbara Lanzdolph
Again Barbara prays for me - says that Judah will help me fulfill my destiny . God says He will teach me lessons for the nations as I mother Judah. -
feeling disconnected
feeling disconnected to RI
praying "when will you send us out?" "Where will we go?" -
Exposure
Ryan Gaumond gives me one word. EXPOSURE.
Says that my gifts and talents are coming into the light. they have been in the dark room. -
doula
In prayer, I mention the doula thing again.
I also write in my journal: Midwife?? serve the nations -
words I hear from God
I think God says this:
This is your year. He shows me this by showing me my birth day 2/22, then the year I graduated highschool my birthday was 2/2202
and this year will be 2/22/12.
Your work will take you places.
Money will come from the other side.
A definite valley in your journey but the sun is coming. it's on the horizon. -
fast for breakthrough and the status quo to change
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contact model agency for Judah
i am still thinking that Judah is going to help me act in some way and maybe its because she is so cute. also praying this month that God would speak to us about our plan. -
Dennis Cramer
Dennis Cramer preaches: This is your year!
He compares calling to birth and commissioning to graduation....
God had just told me that it was my year and he showed me that through birth and graduation. plus I felt comissioned in Chicago. -
Lessons
God is showing me how we must care for out spiritual re-birth like we care for actual birth.
Showing me the importance of spiritual mothers and fathers I am praying about this doula thing.. asking God to keep confirming. -
Appleby is born-- God uses this in a big way to confirm the Doula thing.
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still praying about getting certified as a doula
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God starts showing me MAINE
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Money for Haiti Provided
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MAINE and more MAINE
also praying that Judah would walk by August. -
LIGHTBULB! BREAKTHROUGH!
It seems so clear now, but up until this day nothing was clear. I had no clear idea what God wanted me to pursue.
At church on Sunday during worship I felt like He said Judah is bringing you into your destiny. I want you pursue the Doula certification/ something in childbirth."
Then the sermon was all about motives and "building our tower" and SITTING AND WAITING once God reveals a plan. -
Waiting
Sitting and waiting and counting the cost.
There is no money to get certified to become a Doula and I can't even catch up on reading because the books are not at the library! ha. God's timing.... -
MORE MAINE
what's up with Maine???