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It seems like one thing after another from starving herself to, most recently, checking and "fixing" everything her hands can touch. She is to be one of the first people taking Prozac.
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She was very nervous about what might happen and when she does, becomes even more nervous because her heart rate slightly insceases. She doesn't know if it is a side effect or just more anxietly so she decides to sit down and wait it out.
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When she rushes to see if she's pregnant the doctor tells her she has an O-shaped hymen and is still medically considered a virgin. When they cut it she cries because she feels that the six imaginary friends that she has living inside of her have been aborted.
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Lauren wakes up one morning and realizes she got 8 hours of sleep for the first time in many months and also, she feels different. When she walks around her apartment she sees that her OCD symptoms have vanished, When she turned the stove or faucet on and off, she trusted them without repeatedly switching, checking or tapping them.
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She explains to her doctor that she doesn't feel like she's gotten anything accomplished because she hasn't been writing, She eventually decides to stay on because the doctor reminder her she's stayed out of hospitals for this long which is an accomplishment on its own.
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She now has friends, a steady job and she can't complain about her life and where it was going, She moves out of her basement apartment and even finds a man named Benett
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She finds her hands betraying her again, tapping, checking, counting her steps and even walking backwards through doors which Lauren finds humiliating. When she calls her doctor infuriated, he tells her to increase her dose.
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The higher dose lessened her OCD symptoms but it never worked like it did before. It also completely took away her sex life even after trying all kinds of herbals.
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Her success feels fake because she wouldn't have achieved it without the drug that took so much away from her, She keeps taking it because the good might outweigh the bad and unfotunately she is taking more than what the FDA reccomends even after several failed attempts of lowering her dose.
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